Sometimes i wonder if people were better if i wasn't in their life anymore. I dont mean "self deletion " but just leaving people so they can have a better life without me in it

Im wondering if i deserved to be scouted. Im not fishing for pity points or back pats. I just believed people with the most talent deserved this honor. My art isnt bad nor do i think im a bad artist but i believe i have alot of ground to cover before i should get noticed. Im probably overthinking a tad bit.

Never let anyone know how your feeling. It leads to bigger problems.

Sometimes i wish that i didn't have adhd. I take things way to seriously & act overly sensitive or my emotions are always way to high & im constantly worrying about others & not myself & generally overthink situations.

How does the community take to people venting on here.

Ive been thinking about making a drawing primarily based of my struggles with mental health and depression. I kinda nervous to get this intimate with my art since most of my struggles involves thoughts or attempts of a certain subject and ive always been afraid to be open with it. Even if there's been recent events or not. Hence why i hold my tongue about it. Im just worried its to much for others to handle.

Im wondering if i should just give up on making relationships & talking to people. Im not as upset as i was earlier but things have been taking its toll on me. I just dont think i should have friends or love ones anymore. I keep getting booted or cut out of other people's lives and i have no one to blame but myself.

Maybe i shouldn't focus on making friends. I feel i make everyone around me miserable & they end up resenting me. So i dont think i should focus on making other relationships at the moment.

I meant a new friend in Walmart. Her name is Kimberly:)

I think i know my new goal as an artist.Doing good by others & making a small impact when ever i can

https://ayoub3332.newgrounds.com/news/post/1360747

This message made me realize that.