Had a rough night, felt really alone

Someone please reach out to me, im supposed to be sleeping but i dont want to be alone. Please im begging for someone. Forcing myself to stay awake.

I dont think i should be online. I dont behave properly and seem to get overly emotionally on things and beat myself up all the time. Please reach out to me anyone.

I don’t want to be alone, I’m not in danger but I just need someone.

Sometimes ill dm people so i can have someone to talk to at night.

Watching a video that discusses a old fnaf fan comic and ngl, this comic is pretty ass.

Maybe its just me but i think im slowly finding less ways to interact with others online and the spark has kinda died out. Is this a bad thing because i used take online seriously when i had my closest friends online but now that I've been kicked out by them i guess i just had trouble finding a friend group via online. That and i just view going online as entertainment at most. Maybe i wasn't made for all of this social media stuff and making new friends online and keeping friends online who wont ditch me for not "changing "

At the same time, i cant help but to feel lonely, staying up at night hoping to find someone to talk to so things would be less quiet.

P.s i might rebuy minecraft on my switch, maybe that will help with mental or stress stuff, maybe i can get it cheap at the pawn shop i sold it at.

Ive been told being too nice can be a bad thing and i want to work on behaving super selflessly and focus on myself. Just to ask this how can being too nice be a bad thing?

What would you guys consider as love ?

How do i be less werid and annoying to people?